Eagles’s flight – God Loves You and God Loves me – 1/26/17

I love what Graham Cooke does.

He’s the one prophetic guy that I listen to now and then and highly respect.

I was briefly on his intercessor team some years ago, and took a course he offered which fit right in with what God was doing with me at the time.

And I was told in prayer, “you can pray for him and listen to him, but don’t follow him.”

Which is what I was told repeatedly about many folks leading a variety of ministries.

Which has led me to find my own ways deeper into God’s love for me.

Here is a link to a short video on Graham’s website that tells a great story about how God loves us, whether we love ourselves or not.

http://brilliantperspectives.com/conduits-of-love/

Take a listen, because God loves you the same.

Clark

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Eagle’s Flight – I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever – 12/19/16

I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever
[psalms 23:6b]

In the House of the Lord, I wear a black white and gray coat of long hair. This is my spiritual covering.

I come
dressed
on the step
and breathe
<selah>

this is my morning meditation

gray
I’m “old” and getting older
and I live in a gray world
where views collide
and partial vision
meets physical understanding
that merges with scripture
and my experience
to build my spiritual house
which I see as it comes into focus
prepared for me

this is how I operate
walking with God

where a Word comes
in a dream
a thought, a fleeting idea, the touch of a number
as I ask
or it arrives
unbidden

my house
my mansion
my estate
is an ever expanding place of the Spirit
creating “new” every morning [1]

perhaps God can’t see the future
because it doesn’t exist now
but God knows our paths
and knows where they lead

God knows what he’s building
and therefore knows what it will look like
but it doesn’t actually exist until the appropriate “nows” are created that get us  there.

curious
and perhaps then our growth is real
not growing into a fixed, preexisting future
but our paths are laid out and we have real choice
created by boundless love
to follow as we will

like a carpenter
who knows what he’s building
and sets about building it
or an architect
who has drawn up plans
making concrete her vision
which is made complete in a new hospital
for a city

as each step progresses
various partial completions arise
new tools are used to take it to the next level
parts are joined together
some are cut off
but there is plenty of material
and more is being prepared
as God’s kingdom is being built
with parts selected and shaped
to fit the unfinished project
envisioned

parts that refuse to fit now
are perhaps re-purposed
re-formed
laid aside
to be picked up again
in their time
as the kingdom shaping goes on

it took billions of years
to create the habitable living space
for the creatures to arise
that would finally form
the bride
for the lamb

and in a grand cataclysm
the bride will come together
and be revealed
whole
perfect and complete
lacking in nothing

and will walk to meet her groom
at the Wedding of the Lamb
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[1] “Now and the Physics of Time” [Richard Muller] An interesting unproven theory that considers that new time is being constantly created just as new space is created to make space expand. The front of this wave of new time is what we consider “now”.  The theory could be confirmed as the LIGO experiments get more sensitive and encounter larger black hole mergers which create a spike in new space and perhaps new time.  [NPR – Now and the Physics of Time]

My Reference Frame
12 – Complete Lacking in Nothing
1 – New Creation
2 – The Holy Spirit
3 – The Ground I Stand On
[from “My Room with 12 Doors” – not yet published]

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Here’s my current “floor plan” of My Room with 12 Doors
12-doors-diagram-v-5

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Eagle’s Flight – Guidance – lights in dark places – 12/2/16

I woke this morning early, exploring my “Room with 12 Doors”. It became apparent (after a time of wondering prayer) that I had entered the door of “Guidance” which I have now subtitled, “lights in dark places”. Here’s the poem that resulted.

Guidance – lights in dark places
I walk
in the dark
unrelenting
and speak light
gently

igniting with a breath
the spark
awaiting fuel
the fanning breath
the loving torch gently carried
and a flame bursts forth

small
quiet fire
seeking tinder
air to breathe
sheltered
it glows
it grows
to desire kindling
then small logs
and then the fire depends
on its purpose
to grow and ignite the countryside
or to be set in a lamp
carried
hung high
to mark the Way
an inn
a gateway gathering
a road carrying off into the distance
as darkness gathers
and night falls

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Here’s my current floor plan of My Room with 12 Doors …We’re still building this out

my-room-with-12-doors

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eagle’s flight – The Road Ahead – 5 Uncharted Territory – 11/7/16

excerpt from –  The Road Ahead,  Chapter 5

5 Uncharted Territory   (Endings and Beginnings)

endings
become beginnings
revealing treasure
uncovered
nowhere else

I find that I learn a lot about myself and what I do, through these “endings and beginnings”. These transitions force me to consolidate what has been familiar but is now ending, and then to start to think differently as I come into a new situation, job, or life phase, which starts out with plenty of unknown elements. And since God is both new every morning[i] and the same yesterday, today and tomorrow[ii], I can expect many times when my familiar gives way to something completely new that feels like I’m starting over.

College ends – jobs begin    

I seem to learn the most from endings and beginnings.  At the end of college I had several roads I was interested in pursuing, a teaching career in physics and math at the High School level and a slight interest in computers which I’d gotten a taste of during college, but hadn’t spent much time in computer and software related classes. I had done some tutoring and actually taught a high school geometry class when the sub in the class I was assisting in turned out to not be very good at geometry. So I was directed by the teacher to teach the class the next time that sub came in, which I did a few days later, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I like explaining things to people in ways that they can grab a hold of.

So as I was finishing up my collegiate senior year, my next step was coming down to a Peace Corps teaching post or getting my masters in Education so I could teach High School physics. I knew people who had done both that recommended each path. The Masters degree sounded like the most sure way to get a job, so I decided to do that. On the way back to my room after making the decision, I ran into one of my roommates who asked what I’d decided, so I told him. I can’t forget his reply: “Well, …. its what I would have done, but I was expecting more from you.”

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[i] Lamentations 3:22-23 – new every morning
[ii] Hebrews 13:7-8 – Christ is the same forever

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eagle’s flight – The Road Ahead – 4 Deep Healing (Going Deeper) – 10/22/16

excerpt from –  The Road Ahead,  Chapter 4

4 Deep Healing (Going Deeper)

buried deep within me
I find hard rock
calcified routines
and a treasure
foundation
of who I am
in Christ
and
Christ in me.

God’s “too large” promises to me deal with knowing and walking into more of God and Love. Some of these take me deeper into myself for discovery and healing. As a result, some new talents have emerged such as poetry and music, which had been dormant for years. These too are part of my journey. Discovering and walking through the mansion created for me has been a large gift that keeps on giving as I find and explore the deeper places and pray into and through what I find there.

How I got here – Deep within my trash and treasure

I’ve repeated one experience in prayer probably more than any other, and that is coming to the foot of the cross of Jesus and laying down my burdens there.[i]

At least that’s how it began. At first, I didn’t know what to do, so I lay down my burdens one by one in prayer, waiting to see what else I needed to let go of and then I’d wait and finally ask what burden I should take up and carry. Over time I started to realize that I often couldn’t tell the difference between my trash and my treasure that I was carrying, so I started laying down my trash and my treasure and then asking what I should carry away for that day. Sometimes I discovered that something I treasured wasn’t really worth all that much once I put it down. And sometimes I found a direction for the day I’d not expected.

One time when I came to this place I found as a treasure a small bronze cross at the foot of Jesus’ larger cross. It seems that my cross had sprung up at the foot of the larger cross. So I took it up that day and it’s been growing in me since. My burden to bear seems to be to understand and explain things in ways that only some can understand. I found I write poetry that lets myself and others experience an emotion, a situation, a verse of scripture, or a concept in a way that gets past our analysis defense.  Instead my poems put us in the place of experiencing these things and then analyzing them later. Much like the parables of Jesus and some of the writings of the Old Testament prophets.

This burden is light when I write a poem that several respond to because it touched them. This burden gets heavy when I write or speak a word that no one understands and some misunderstand and ignore or criticize.

[i] Matthew 11:28-30 – I will give you rest

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eagle’s flight – The Road Ahead – 3. Gifts (Reaching Higher) – 9/27/16

excerpt from –  The Road Ahead,  Chapter 3

3 Gifts (Reaching Higher)

Who I am
changed
by a touch
a word
that gave me
something new
to explore
and grow into

God gives gifts[i] that turn out to be larger than my asking. Often I feel disappointed in a gift given from God because I don’t quite understand what I’ve been given. I’ve learned to live with that disappointment for a bit as I do my initial stumbling about walking into each new unknown. A recurring “thank you” from me to God when I’ve been given such a gift is, “Um, thanks? It’s not what I expected, but I bet in 2 years time, I’ll think it’s really cool. So, be patient and show me into this gift.”   Turns out I gave the same kind of gifts to my kids. They were sometimes beyond what they currently wanted. But, I heard a year or two later, “I really appreciate what you gave me”.

Vineyard Conference #3 – I’d like a gift

On my third trip to the Anaheim Vineyard Christian Fellowship Worship Conference, I asked God for a gift from that conference. I had experienced the Holy Spirit’s presence in a variety of ways at the previous 2 conferences, so I asked for either the gift of healing, or the gift of prophecy.

Towards the end of the week’s conference, during a worship time, the band was playing and I was enjoying worshiping, the Holy Spirit fell on me and I was totally wrapped up in praising, and moving my arms with the Spirit. I was laughing and crying at the same time. At some point, the Spirit receded a bit and I sat down as the band finished its set. I was breathless and wondered, “OK, What was that?!”

Just then, a woman behind me said, “I so love to watch the Spirit fall on people.” (and I thought, “go watch someone else!” feeling embarrassed at being a spectacle). She continued, “Wimber says, as a rule of thumb that when the Spirit gives someone a gift and they laugh, the Spirit has given them the gift of healing. And when they cry, the Spirit has given them the gift of prophecy.”  (and I thought, wow! I’ve got both!) and she continued, “and when they laugh and cry at the same time, the Spirit has given them the gift of intercession.”

Whoa, that was disappointing. I don’t remember what I said to the woman. I hope I said thank you, but I felt like I’d almost gotten what I’d asked for, but that I had to settle for “prayer”

But, I knew by then that when God said something to me or gave me a gift or a word, that I always felt disappointed, but that in 2 years time, I would have come to understand just what I had been given and would have grown to love the gift.  So I told God, “thanks. Just so You know, I’m disappointed.  But probably in 2 years time I’ll feel very different about the whole thing.”

It took a while, perhaps even 2 years. But I discovered that the gift of intercession incorporates the gifts of prophecy and healing, and in fact its what Jesus is doing before the Father, making intercession for us. [i]So now I am indeed very grateful to be on this journey of intercession, in conversation with the Spirit, able to partner with Jesus, holding people, attitudes, and false gods before God and making intercession. I’ve been graced to see answers, progress and new ways of looking at things as I’ve grown in intercessory provision and authority.

[i] Romans 8:34 – Jesus is making intercession for us

[i] Ephesians 4:7-8 – God gives gifts

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eagle’s flight – The Road Ahead – 2. Doors of Entry (Brand New) – 9/14/16

Here’s my annotated Table of Contents for my book – The Road Ahead, bit by bit..

2 Doors of Entry (Brand New) [the road ahead]

I pass through a door
and find my way
forward
into new things
and ways
I had not known

Frequently my prayers start out down familiar paths, only to find an unexpected door, a surprise ending, an answer I don’t particularly like, and I’ve come to see that this is a consistent aspect of the Holy Spirit’s conversations with me.

A House of the Lord prayer:

The House of the Lord: The Cross of Jesus

I come onto the porch of the House of the Lord
and on the far end
there is a cross
it is the cross of Jesus placed there for me

I come to the foot of the cross
and lay down my trash and treasure
the burdens that are too heavy
and the burdens I delight in
and rest

<selah>

I stand ready to go
and ask Jesus to give me what he would have me carry

As I turn to go, I notice that the front of the cross is cracked along a side
I inspect it further, and find that the front of the cross is somehow loose
I pull on it, and it opens like a door
the cross is hollow inside

I step inside and examine the inside of the cross of Jesus
<selah>

As I’m looking around I notice a hole in the ground at the back
I take a closer look,
it’s a tunnel down through the back of the cross
and I follow it down to see where it goes

This is a tunnel down through death

I turn back, to take this road another time.

<selah>

Thanksgiving

I give thanks for what I found

<selah>

<amen>

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