These are difficult times in many different ways especially when our disagreements turn into barriers between one another.
One such online conversation caused me to stop and re-affirm my calling to love my neighbor as I love myself, and to remind myself the ways in which God has walked with me thus far.
I am called
to love my neighbor as I love myself
to love both of us
because that’s how God loves
and one of my love bits
is to listen when God calls into question
some of my deep held beliefs about myself
that don’t quite follow or live up to the love parts
I don’t love myself and wish God had made me some other way
I’ve been wounded and refused to heal because it’s too painful
I’m afraid of what others would say if they only knew …
It’s just too hard (for a variety of reasons)
I’ve not grown into yet the difficult love I’m now facing
but I keep saying “yes” to God’s next steps with me
even when my initial response is
or “That will never happen”
or “But I asked for THIS, not THAT”
and now, I add
“but I know in 2 years I’ll feel very different, so please carry on”
and God smiles, sometimes chuckles and continues to remake me in God’s image of my true self.
And I look back and marvel at where God has taken me and look forward to where I’m going
the Father, Son and Spirit
the Way, Truth and Life
the Lord of Wind and Wave
And I am finding joy in living into God’s callings on me
to see myself with God’s eyes
to come out on the waves above the depths
in the Grace of Presence
to live into my gifts of intercession, healing and the Word
to work to raise the Bride
to touch one person, then one more, each one at a time
to live into God’s promises specifically to me
And to God’s question to me of
would I rather be taken up or will I remain when the times get tough?
I’ve said “I’ll remain”
So, the race is on, I’ve been prepared, and I’ve known the grace of Love in a variety of circumstances. So, bring it on and may I and we all grow into and through love’s the little deaths that we encounter on The Way, because that’s how God works.