OK, my book, “The Road Ahead” is waiting for my last “OK” to and my return from several trips to be self-published. Its time to start my poems up again.
I’m in Ohio, on a work assignment and driving back and forth in an area I’ve been before twice. Somehow that’s not enough for me to know how to get around. So I take wrong turns, get turned around, and it helps me remember what my journey with God is often like. We all have a set of mistakes we make over and over again, and I find it helps me to know what mine are, so I can laugh when I do them again. I do learn things from them, but not necessarily how to get from point A to point B. I do need help with directions it turns out. Always have.
I get so lost
in new areas
I turn left when I should have turned right
I go in circles and can’t figure out what I’ve done wrong
I think I’ve gone too far when I’ve not gone far enough
so what then?
I look at a map
connect with my GPS
as a last resort
I ask someone
but I usually don’t know what to ask
that makes sense in the other’s local context
I get lost with God also
and usually by not seeing what God’s doing
not seeing how my prayers are being worked through and answered
until much later
I’ve had several examples
shown to me over the years
that I couldn’t see until
the “Ohhhhh …” epiphany hits
and my world view flips over
rotates 180 degrees
and suddenly makes sense of years worth of experiences.
I think its because I’m getting older
but then realize
I’ve always been this way
perhaps more things
leak out of my memory than used to
but the problems
and blindness to new growth