So I’m poking more deeply into my callings, praying through them while reading a friend recommended book*. Certain things catch my attention and give some added words to what I’ve been doing for years, filling out my picture of myself a bit more clearly.
So I asked to see myself
as God sees me
and as I was reading later
one word jumped off the page
passion
as a hallmark of people who have discovered
and are walking out their calling
passion in what I’m doing
keeps me awake
keeps me going forward
keeps me going even when others don’t see the point
or start to think it annoying
I am struck by passion
when solving an interesting problem
when working out how to explain / coach someone
past a roadblock in their understanding
I am struck when I’m looking for the truth behind a thing
and the paths don’t add up
something doesn’t smell quite right
I am struck by the beauty and depth
in mathematics, physics
and by Godel’s proof that math doesn’t contain all its own answers
there are questions math can pose, that it can’t answer
I am struck by a flower on a mountainside
by a flash of intuition that unlocks
a blocked train of thought
by the many things we don’t understand
which lead us on
to more things to explore and get to know
there is more mystery buried in living
than we like to admit
it undermines our control
and stretches our mental models
past comfortable
but that’s when things
get interesting.
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* The book: “The Soul’s Code – in search of character and calling” by James Tillman
